I refuse to diet. I've been on that diet train and it's never worked for me. Something always goes wrong.
When I was a teenager I binged and purged for some of my middle school years and all of my high school years. They say once you're bulimic you're always bulimic. I disagree. I haven't relapsed in about 2 or 3 years. Unfortunately I've also been afraid to "diet" because of it. I thought if I started fussing about my weight I would get sucked in and eventually regress.
I feel that I've overcome a lot of my demons. Mind you, I've done it mostly on my own. I think that's why it's taken so long. I never had any help from anyone with this issue. I don't recommend doing it my way. If you're going through a similar problem, please get help immediately. Don't lose years of your life or your life entirely.
Anyway, no dieting! I've finally managed to find a balance.
There is no trick or gimmick to losing weight. You can eat what you want in moderation as long as you exercise, drink loads of water and take vitamins. I'm living proof!
I started including exercise in my routine last year. It took me about 2 weeks to get used to it and I managed to lose 35lbs. Of course, I had help. I used a supplement called Alli. I only lost 2 to 3lbs a week. I know it sounds dreadfully slow but it was the healthy way to do it. Health was and is my number one priority. Weight loss should never be stimulated by desperation, vanity or obsession. Those roads all lead to a dark path. I'm not going back there and you shouldn't either.
I stopped losing weight this year because I stopped exercising. I gained one or two lbs back but I managed to lose them before starting up again. I lost 3lbs last week. Woohoo! I don't think I'll be using Alli this time around. I don't feel like dishing out $60. I rather work harder at the gym. I can't even believe I'm saying that!
I'm confident I can lose 3lbs every week for 19 weeks in order to reach my goal of 140. Once I reach 140 I'll be able to tell if I should lose more. I'm not trying to look like a stick figure. I want to look and feel healthy. After all, I'm planning on having a rugrat in one or two years. I want to provide the best possible home for my future child. That - is my motivation.
I don't count calories and I don't have a log of any sort but if any of you would like me to put one up just leave a comment requesting one. I'll gladly start one if it means it can make someone else's voyage easier.