Writing and journaling is extremely therapeutic. I know this very well. I started writing poetry around 5th grade and I continued doing so until my brief stay in college. I used to love to write not because I wanted to be a writer but because it allowed me to express and divulge my emotions. In moments of extreme sadness writing became essential to me. But after college, after I met the love of my life I completely stopped. I no longer found it necessary. In fact, I threw out every single poem I ever wrote in my entire life. My high school creative writing teacher would kill me!
I remember putting them in a black garbage bag hoping that my past would be thrown out with them. I wanted a new start. I didn't want all those memories wearing me down. I rather them take my place at a landfill.
6 years ago I allowed myself to accept the good in my life. I allowed myself to be happy by removing all of the negative people and things that surrounded me. Now that I've cleansed myself of all of that I think it's fair to say that maybe I should write again. I want to leave something behind for my future children. I want to leave something behind for myself.
Unfortunately it's been so long since I've written something that it doesn't come as easily as it used to. Sadness is very powerful inspiration. I can't find any inspiration in my current state.
I'm going to try to do this in baby steps.
When I was in high school I used to read one book each week. I think that really helped and it probably sparked something. I haven't read anything in so long. I've bombarded my brain with images and sounds. So this weekend, I'll be heading to the library. I have no clue what to pick out. Any suggestions?